On finding the motivation and drive to dedicate time to project development.

I have a powerful feeling, a deep knowledge and awareness that I AM going to become everything I want to be. In this very moment, I feel the juices flowing within me... motivation to write out, to organize, to develop and to bring my ideas to life. I want to be able to feel this drive constantly - it's the only way that I can invest my time and energy properly. Without this drive, I'm just a mess of redundant ideas going around and around in my mind. These thoughts drive me crazy - they remind me that I have something to work on, something to go after, something to develop... and the feeling of frustration that mounts within me can easily be avoided if I prioritize my time and motivation properly.

What is it that drives me to sit and concentrate on untangling the web within my mind? I just got back from a documentary related to: internet, social networking, private vs public lives, marketing, etc. These are my passions. As soon as I am surrounded by them, they get into my thought process, they stimulate my drive and get my gears into motion.

I need to watch movies, research, read and then write about these topics of passion. As soon as I surround myself with the fruits of my desires, I FEEL them infiltrate my being and propel me into motion. This drive is essential for prioritizing my time and energy.

At this point and time in my life, I'm feel like I'm ready to put aside things that aren't working towards what gets me closer to my goals. In order to live, I must work my 9-5. In order to build my future, I must invest my post 9-5 and weekend time to my project. Drinking consumes this evening and weekend time, which should be my most productive time. It is essential that I realize how valuable this time is. If I can maintain the motivation by stimulating my mind with the right materials, then I can use the time I have accordingly.

Saying and sensing that I am going to do something is not enough. Action must take place in order to get the wheels in motion. One of my strongest abilities is time management and self discipline - these are the qualities that will allow for me to make something of myself and it's time for me to apply this ability.

This means so much to me, but I need get beyond fantasizing about my ability to make this happen. I need to constantly remind myself that action must take precedence and the only way to FEEL this reminder is to surround myself with the materials that motivate productivity.